OHMYFCK!!!!!!

if i had just add in a bit more... i could have bought you the Crumpler pouch... dang~ :'(

Fear drives around me. Fear lingers me. Fear is my new friend. Fear completes me.

Been through 2 days of hell and unconditional death. wonders if this is the starting of the end, or the end of the beginning...

I have faith in this relationship. but. I just feared that i'm being replaced in your life by someone else... soon...

I really hope that things wont get awkward when we meet up again... wait.. are we going to meet up again? :/

I know, that trust is gone... but will it jeopardize our relationship? Most importantly, happiness?

I still wanna try... I'll still remain loyal... still...

for the fact that i love you so much...

people say that the first quarrel will take place 3 months into the relationship. true. we fell for that. And people say, most relationship will end in 4 months time.... will we fall for that one?

i hope not.

loving you always,

Chris

♥

it's not easy, waking up, and having to attend to your broken heart while doing your daily stuff... its never easy.... 

you hold the spell to my happiness, the key to my heart, and but, you also unlocked my Pandora's Box...

there's nothing that you'll like about me now.

looks? i look like a total loser.

Money? i dont even have a car.

personality? well, you know the true me already.

.....

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being in a relationship without mutual trust, is like building a house without concrete; both can and will fall over a small thing....

but that's not the thing.

the thing is, how am i suppose to continue this? start all over again, or just... well.. take a break?

Someone, please save me...

because it's not easy being me...

moreover, 

no one truly understands me...

it hurts, but...

it's the truth...

- confused, and lonely... and dying. . . 

it's never easy being me... and it'll never be. . . .

I'm sorry.... for everything...

i.... dont wanna break....

but..if that happens....

i'll be lucky that i will be able to wake up the next day....

the gate of hell is opened throughout the whole month anyway....

my stomach's churning from hunger. Just like how it was a few days ago.

But my heart's bleeding, for forgiveness.

and my soul's thirsty for you love.

hope my mum understand how i feel, even though i didnt tell her what's going on.

I shall not eat anything until i...hear something from you...

afterall, its my heart that hurts more, not my stomach...

its okay, its alright..

everyone will die anyway...

i dont think dying for someone you love its silly...

its just shows how much you are willing to sacrifise for them.

I know i'm supposed to be asleep, but yeah. ended up ranting to my blog instead. forever buddies. (Y)

got back my MT Olevel result today. B3. damn happy. I was even happier, when i texted my dad, and he said this,

"Wow... That's good!! keep it up man... "

and hell yeah, i cried when i receive that... For almost 17 years in my life, my dad finally praised me. To many, it may just be a trivial thing. But to me, it means a lot...

Many teachers were shocked to see me crying... as in, astounded...

yeah. today was great... was.

i just dont know why. been having mood swings lately. although i'm not a girl. lol.

Been feeling very lonely these days. very. i ... just cant seem to feel contented... its like, i really dont know what i want.i dont know  what can cheer me up. Really. Have been losing out of control lately. 

Sometimes, you can just describe the words that people say. There are people, who say things, and their words are like, expired sweets. The wrappers are still intact, but the inside, are just plain crap. Some people are even better. Their words, and actions, are like,  sugar-coated acids. 

whatever it is, i just dont know... been feeling kinda down for the whole week. everything about me was facade.

shall end my rants here. i dont wanna trouble my blog.

Blind Cave Tetra

Swordtail Fish

Guppy Fish

MOLLIES

shall research on what fish to buy for our " Couple Fish " before studying ! ^^

hey baby girl!

9th August, 2011.

We spent the afternoon, studying together. At Mac. ^^

it was fun to study with you, although i was not really concentrating on my work. hehe.

I love your voice alot alot alot. really. but i love you the most. 

Idk why, but when we're together, just the two of us, my problems suddenly disappear.

its not a clitche, but you get what i mean right?

hmmm, all i can say is that, i'm really hapy to be with you. really.

although there'll be obstacles, but i'm sure we will overcome it. together, as one.

love you ttm.!

 ♥

I wanna complain to the MOE for setting O Level Science Biology Papers for the past ten years, in such a way that doing them, is like insulting my knowledge...HAHA! lol.

11:11 - Quality time together soon.. :'(

baby, i miss you like crazy~

these are not just words that comes out from my mouth...

these are what my heart tell me to say...

To my DEAREST and most AWESOME girl out there:

HAPPY 2ND MONTH!!!!

love you always! Last Long!!!!!!

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