The sweet things, and memories that we have so far, is just beautiful. i hope, it will continue this way... after this year.

Been thinking about what Leonard told me about JC life: lifeless, living hell.

Really hope to spend lots more time with you before i got posted to my JC/Poly/MI next year. Really hope that we don't hope that we don't have to have long-distance relationship next year. Because it is scary. Both of us would not know if we miss one another, or we have forgotten about each other. No, hell no, i don't want this to end. I don't want to start all over again, with another person. Hell no.

But i cant be too selfish ; you ought to spend time with your friends too.

Really, the thought of another guy having you is really really painful. I've been trying to not to think too much, but my efforts are really futile. Maybe, the Drum Major post i got last time causing me to think so much? But then again, i cant fully blame that post for my current personality. Maybe it's myself. Or again, maybe its just part of growing up? I cant be sure though.

I keep telling myself: If i want to have those fond memories relived again, i must be the one who steps up, and make it happen. Yes, i miss the old " us " somehow. We're more childish back then. And yes, i love it. It's really enjoyable. Really. After all, love is supposed to be childish anyway, right?

I don't know why. I've been feeling rather down lately, rather easily hurt. But yeah. I guess, i'm good in faking after all huh. Yeah.

Really hoping to be able to spend New Year's Eve with you. . . .

That's all i've got to say, my dear blog. Thank you for listening to me at 12 midnight. I guess, i've let everything out ? or maybe not? i don't know. I don't even know myself.

Ended with a drop of blood. Till next time. . . .