It's not the same thing when your parent curse you, as compared to when your friends curse you. Its really painful. Especially, when you do your best to make them happy, yet they don't appreciate you. It is even more painful when your parents are more biased to your relatives or siblings, and give them more special treatment than you.

It is really painful. It hurts. It kills. I miss being treated as a human. I really am. I've not been able to feel being treated as a human being for sometime already. It hurts.

It hurts to keep that smile wide, when you're actually destroyed inside. It hurts to keep on crying every time. It hurts not being treated like a human. It hurts to be so weak.

I really feel that i'm like a punching bag. Hurt me. Destroy me. And then leave me.

It hurts, to be alive.

Lord, don't just only give me your strength... Give the Gulf War Veterans, those Muslims in the Arab countries, children of Chernobyl, and many others whose life is not as fortunate as mine your strength too...

They need it more than me....