Hey. My name is Chris. I've lived closed to 18 years in this filthy world.

Yes. its me. I'm just experiencing a PMS, or mood swing.

Disappointment will forever be my best friend. He'll be there for me, anytime, any where, any occasion. Never leave me, never turn his back on me. He's a great, life-long friend that i'll have.

Yes. I'm disappointed at myself. I got angry too easily, and i'm too sensitive, i've to admit. A little bit of stark, harsh words can simply turn me off. I used to think that we should treat others with lots of respect. By not using harsh words, and tell them nicely. Hence, i got turned off easily when people condescend me. 

This kind of attitude that i had, is actually the kind of attitude that abhor the most about me. I can see in others' eyes that i'm just nothing, but someone who wanted to be treated like a king. Always think that my perspective is the best amongst the rest. 

I used to give some wisdom to my friends when we reach a disagreement, back then. But overtime, i become as corrupt as them, often being nefarious. Now, my coup de grace in any argument is either a deaf ear, or egregious usage of vocabulary on others. 

And yes, i won the argument... in a selfish way...

i gotta change. really. 

i'm not pin-pointing on anyone else... except me...

Maybe this whole thing is happening to me, because , well, maybe i'm just confused. 

I'm just a confused, young man, with immature thoughts and everything. really. 

I really, do not know what caused me to be like this. Maybe i'm just seeking attention? I don't know. I mean, its me. 

I think i really need alot of time on my own... maybe should go somewhere further. Maybe Changi instead of Clarke Quay on every Fridays. . . .

sometimes...

i just fell that...

someone should give me a gun, and i'll pull the trigger. . .

Done. Problem solved.

Shall go to school tmr with a smile on my face, as usual. . . 

shall end my rants here.