Death

2012-01-30T07:29:00.000-08:00

It's me again. Yes, ranting the stuff in my head...

it's 11:30pm. Jc life starts tmr. . .

I cant sleep. so many things running in my mind. it's killing me. slowly. every single damn thing.

feeling v useless, and all these emotional stuff cant just... easily end... it sucks.... its really killing me from the inside, just that its gonna be a slow death.

really need some motivations in life... really.. really... idk.. i dont really know what i want... full of mixed emotions...

it's like, i know i've done my best in everything, and really have tried my best, but it just seems that... while i did my best, i was expecting 'about-the-same-thing' from......yeah....
i really dk why am i suddenly turning into a freak.... idk...

i've no idea when my time will come...

maybe i should just .. think about what i've done.. and then just go and die.

2012-01-07T09:49:00.001-08:00

What went wrong....?

2011-12-23T09:08:00.000-08:00

Back from work... damn exhausted.. :X but damn lucky that Head Chef drove me and two other ppl home... well, not exactly to home, but its damn good enough to drop me of at YT mrt already... THANK YOU SO MUCH CHEF! ^^

had fun with Chef , crapping during the car ride... then it came to a topic about relationships...he talked about how BAD guys are and how guys should be a player in relationships... ( =.= ) bullcrap. haha! then he started revealing that his marriage was a failure, and all those... it was kinda sad.... but i really think that he's a good father. really. he called his son, " bro " while he was on the phone.. ._. cool dad man.... ._. haha! and yeah. he talked much more about his life during the ride...

then it came to the point that i suddenly start to think back, and appreciate what i have now... the feeling of being loved by someone, and all those stuff.. it's really a priceless feeling.. really...

i may not know the challenges that's gonna be waiting for us in the future, but all i can say is that, " as long as we're trying, i'm staying " . . . . i really am, wanna commit myself in this r/n. i really do, honestly... and i really proud of having you as my girl... i really do...

till here then. :)

nights ppl, and have a merry christmas ! God Bless You All!

2011-12-18T09:03:00.001-08:00

192 DAYS OF LOVE: will it end, or will it carry on... ?

2011-12-12T07:41:00.000-08:00

The sweet things, and memories that we have so far, is just beautiful. i hope, it will continue this way... after this year.

Been thinking about what Leonard told me about JC life: lifeless, living hell.

Really hope to spend lots more time with you before i got posted to my JC/Poly/MI next year. Really hope that we don't hope that we don't have to have long-distance relationship next year. Because it is scary. Both of us would not know if we miss one another, or we have forgotten about each other. No, hell no, i don't want this to end. I don't want to start all over again, with another person. Hell no.

But i cant be too selfish ; you ought to spend time with your friends too.

Really, the thought of another guy having you is really really painful. I've been trying to not to think too much, but my efforts are really futile. Maybe, the Drum Major post i got last time causing me to think so much? But then again, i cant fully blame that post for my current personality. Maybe it's myself. Or again, maybe its just part of growing up? I cant be sure though.

I keep telling myself: If i want to have those fond memories relived again, i must be the one who steps up, and make it happen. Yes, i miss the old " us " somehow. We're more childish back then. And yes, i love it. It's really enjoyable. Really. After all, love is supposed to be childish anyway, right?

I don't know why. I've been feeling rather down lately, rather easily hurt. But yeah. I guess, i'm good in faking after all huh. Yeah.

Really hoping to be able to spend New Year's Eve with you. . . .

That's all i've got to say, my dear blog. Thank you for listening to me at 12 midnight. I guess, i've let everything out ? or maybe not? i don't know. I don't even know myself.

Ended with a drop of blood. Till next time. . . .

2011-12-03T06:05:00.000-08:00

It's not the same thing when your parent curse you, as compared to when your friends curse you. Its really painful. Especially, when you do your best to make them happy, yet they don't appreciate you. It is even more painful when your parents are more biased to your relatives or siblings, and give them more special treatment than you.

It is really painful. It hurts. It kills. I miss being treated as a human. I really am. I've not been able to feel being treated as a human being for sometime already. It hurts.

It hurts to keep that smile wide, when you're actually destroyed inside. It hurts to keep on crying every time. It hurts not being treated like a human. It hurts to be so weak.

I really feel that i'm like a punching bag. Hurt me. Destroy me. And then leave me.

It hurts, to be alive.

Lord, don't just only give me your strength... Give the Gulf War Veterans, those Muslims in the Arab countries, children of Chernobyl, and many others whose life is not as fortunate as mine your strength too...

They need it more than me....

2011-12-01T21:39:00.000-08:00

You know that guy who likes to make fun of people? The guy that always seen hyperactive when he's with his friends? The guy that enjoys laughing, the guy that enjoys company of friends, and the guy that's quite sick in the mind?

That guy's having an internal warfare with himself.

2011-11-30T21:53:00.000-08:00

Its sucks when the only thing you can do, is to hope, and to pray.

i just wish, i can be less sensitive and less paranoid. for that, i really hate myself.

someone please drive through a wooden stake at my chest. just fucking stop the heart from beating. tyvm.

2011-11-26T05:10:00.000-08:00

Time management. Time management. Time management.

i wanted to do a million things. Time, why arent you on my side?

seriously fed up with myself. i wanna work. i wanna volunteer. i wanna play. i wanna make music. i wanna study. i wanna spend time with you.

i seriously in need of time.

i cant let this holiday pass by like my other holidays did. i wanna make sure that it'll be a meaningful one, for i know, i wont have this luxury in JC anymore.

seriously, ask myself. why am i just so stupid? why cant i do things faster? why cant i do things correctly? why cant i do things accurately?

why on earth am i born like this?

2011-11-06T07:28:00.001-08:00

please, pretty please, assure me that i'm the only one in your heart, and no one else??

haiz...

i really am, scared that i'm falling into paranoia and schizophrenia . . . . or is it just my hallucinations?

haiz....

it's killing me slowly...

it really is.....

sigh...

off, to my abyss....

2011-11-04T17:26:00.001-07:00

sorry, but i really am in love with my girl. ^^

2011-10-26T06:34:00.000-07:00

been surfing the net for almost 2hrs already, despite the fact that my Os is tmr...

was surfing on how to save our relationship.

really.

i've so many things in mind right now....

because i wanna save this relationship very badly...

i really do..

why?

because i love you.

i may have broken your promise twice, but...

i'm keeping on my word that i'll love you....

2011-10-22T05:30:00.000-07:00

Dear God,

i really don't want this to end...

please?

i know it's selfish, but...

i need her. I want her. I love her. Like mad.

Just... one more chance, God... please?

One... LAST one....

i'm begging you.....

2011-10-21T20:31:00.000-07:00

A day, full of Reflections, and Prayers . . .

2011-10-21T20:19:00.000-07:00

2011-10-20T09:44:00.000-07:00

Dear Lord.

Time flies when we were together. I never wanted to hurt her so badly. Lord, i know i was wrong, but will get a second chance? I know my words may pierce, but she she knows what i'm feeling too? Lord above, please give me strength. Please give me strength to carry on living. Please give me strength to carry on learning during these crucial moment of my life. Please give me strength, the strength i need to fight to carry on this relationship. Lord, i dont want this relationship to end as fast as how it started.

Lord, have i done everything that i can? have i sacrificed everything that i could? have i done anything else that i should be able to do? have i done everything?

Lord, i want to smile again with her. I want to get back to the times, like how we used to be. Lord, it was beautiful. It really was.

Lord, i think, i really have learn an important lesson from this Lord. Please, give me one last chance. Please give me just another chance to be with her, smiling again, together. As a couple.

Lord, i really love her very much. I really do. Please tell me she feels the same towards me. Please tell me that I'm the only person in her heart. Please tell me that she wants me as much as how i want her back. Lord, please just tell me what i need to know. Please tell me that they are, to my favors.

Lord, there was a time, in which, we thought of conceiving children, together, and they'll be Your child too, Lord. Lord, please, please tell me that this, will happen, only between me and her.

Oh, Almighty Lord above, I will accept this lesson as the outmost warning Lord. Please, Lord, if being with her, again, is against Your will and Your plan, please just ensure me that she's going to find a better man, not a jerk like me. Lord, please just make sure that she'll be as happy, or even happier, like how she was before we started this relationship.

Lord, i need Your strength. I need Your assurance. I need You Lord. Please give me Your strength. Please give me Your assurance. Without you, i'm just another soldier, fighting a battle without any armor. Lord, i want to kneel before you, and ask for Your forgiveness Lord. Please, give me one last chance, and transport me, back in time, like how we used to be. Lord, please don't let my prayers and cries at night go unheard Lord. Lord, as i'm fighting for the one that i love, I also leave my love life under Your control Lord. Please guide me.

Lord, I am begging You.

I need You, Lord.

Lord Jesus Christ, please give me Your strength for me to go through this battle.

Thank You Lord,

Amen.

2011-10-18T07:18:00.000-07:00

feeling worst than shit now.......

just let me die alright?

2011-10-17T07:58:00.000-07:00

I know i was very angry. but i didnt know that my words were too overboard...

if "sorry" was of no use,

then, please accept my apology in the form of blood....

i'll feel better then...

" if you're ok, then i'm ok "

it applies for the exact opposite.

I do rather lose my life than losing you.

2011-10-15T19:01:00.000-07:00

i feel bad... i really do... :/

hope you wont leave me alone...

pls?

i just... dont know who to love anymore if you're gg to leave me..

2011-10-13T21:36:00.000-07:00

shall go out soon. alone. as usual.

bored. O's coming. kinda prepared though.

miss you.

enjoy your charlet....

2011-10-08T06:13:00.001-07:00

I'm proud to have a Suzy look-alike.

But i'm more proud that i'll have that person forever. ♥

2011-09-30T08:12:00.001-07:00

i kniw that i'm in the wrong, but it just hurts.

2011-09-07T02:48:00.000-07:00

I used to think that romance is shit. Until i met you.

2011-09-05T08:28:00.000-07:00

You know that you only have yourself to trust when the least expected person, turns it's back against you.

2011-09-03T05:43:00.000-07:00

3rd of September, 2011

3 more hours to go...

then it is officially broken the record of 3 months talking non stop if you dont send me anything.. :'(

lolz.

haha. lazy to post. like nothing much nowadays. study study study until brain explode. zzzz.

btw, my fish gave birth.. i hope it is a hybrid! hehe.

oh. got my pink ic le. so i'm officially a SINGAPOREAN. hehe.

so... Indonesian jokes wont work on me already guys~ :P

bleah!

hehe. staying HAPPILY with my dearest wifey. :3

bleah!

love her LOADS.

its my blog anyway.

i'm free to post what i like. :P

nyehehehehe~

till next time!

loving you always,

Chris

♥

2011-08-28T01:43:00.000-07:00

OHMYFCK!!!!!!

if i had just add in a bit more... i could have bought you the Crumpler pouch... dang~ :'(

2011-08-22T01:07:00.000-07:00

Fear drives around me. Fear lingers me. Fear is my new friend. Fear completes me.

Been through 2 days of hell and unconditional death. wonders if this is the starting of the end, or the end of the beginning...

I have faith in this relationship. but. I just feared that i'm being replaced in your life by someone else... soon...

I really hope that things wont get awkward when we meet up again... wait.. are we going to meet up again? :/

I know, that trust is gone... but will it jeopardize our relationship? Most importantly, happiness?

I still wanna try... I'll still remain loyal... still...

for the fact that i love you so much...

people say that the first quarrel will take place 3 months into the relationship. true. we fell for that. And people say, most relationship will end in 4 months time.... will we fall for that one?

i hope not.

loving you always,

Chris

♥

2011-08-20T17:34:00.003-07:00

it's not easy, waking up, and having to attend to your broken heart while doing your daily stuff... its never easy....

you hold the spell to my happiness, the key to my heart, and but, you also unlocked my Pandora's Box...

there's nothing that you'll like about me now.

looks? i look like a total loser.

Money? i dont even have a car.

personality? well, you know the true me already.

.....

being in a relationship without mutual trust, is like building a house without concrete; both can and will fall over a small thing....

but that's not the thing.

the thing is, how am i suppose to continue this? start all over again, or just... well.. take a break?

Someone, please save me...

because it's not easy being me...

moreover,

no one truly understands me...

it hurts, but...

it's the truth...

- confused, and lonely... and dying. . .

it's never easy being me... and it'll never be. . . .

2011-08-20T05:39:00.001-07:00

I'm sorry.... for everything...

i.... dont wanna break....

but..if that happens....

i'll be lucky that i will be able to wake up the next day....

the gate of hell is opened throughout the whole month anyway....

my stomach's churning from hunger. Just like how it was a few days ago.

But my heart's bleeding, for forgiveness.

and my soul's thirsty for you love.

hope my mum understand how i feel, even though i didnt tell her what's going on.

I shall not eat anything until i...hear something from you...

afterall, its my heart that hurts more, not my stomach...

its okay, its alright..

everyone will die anyway...

i dont think dying for someone you love its silly...

its just shows how much you are willing to sacrifise for them.

2011-08-18T05:07:00.000-07:00

I know i'm supposed to be asleep, but yeah. ended up ranting to my blog instead. forever buddies. (Y)

got back my MT Olevel result today. B3. damn happy. I was even happier, when i texted my dad, and he said this,

"Wow... That's good!! keep it up man... "

and hell yeah, i cried when i receive that... For almost 17 years in my life, my dad finally praised me. To many, it may just be a trivial thing. But to me, it means a lot...

Many teachers were shocked to see me crying... as in, astounded...

yeah. today was great... was.

i just dont know why. been having mood swings lately. although i'm not a girl. lol.

Been feeling very lonely these days. very. i ... just cant seem to feel contented... its like, i really dont know what i want.i dont know what can cheer me up. Really. Have been losing out of control lately.

Sometimes, you can just describe the words that people say. There are people, who say things, and their words are like, expired sweets. The wrappers are still intact, but the inside, are just plain crap. Some people are even better. Their words, and actions, are like, sugar-coated acids.

whatever it is, i just dont know... been feeling kinda down for the whole week. everything about me was facade.

shall end my rants here. i dont wanna trouble my blog.

2011-08-14T05:21:00.000-07:00

Blind Cave Tetra

Swordtail Fish

Guppy Fish

MOLLIES

2011-08-12T20:03:00.000-07:00

shall research on what fish to buy for our " Couple Fish " before studying ! ^^

2011-08-10T08:38:00.000-07:00

hey baby girl!

9th August, 2011.

We spent the afternoon, studying together. At Mac. ^^

it was fun to study with you, although i was not really concentrating on my work. hehe.

I love your voice alot alot alot. really. but i love you the most.

Idk why, but when we're together, just the two of us, my problems suddenly disappear.

its not a clitche, but you get what i mean right?

hmmm, all i can say is that, i'm really hapy to be with you. really.

although there'll be obstacles, but i'm sure we will overcome it. together, as one.

love you ttm.!

♥

2011-08-09T07:50:00.000-07:00

I wanna complain to the MOE for setting O Level Science Biology Papers for the past ten years, in such a way that doing them, is like insulting my knowledge...HAHA! lol.

2011-08-05T08:12:00.000-07:00

11:11 - Quality time together soon.. :'(

baby, i miss you like crazy~

these are not just words that comes out from my mouth...

these are what my heart tell me to say...

2011-08-02T11:53:00.000-07:00

To my DEAREST and most AWESOME girl out there:

HAPPY 2ND MONTH!!!!

love you always! Last Long!!!!!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2011-07-31T12:55:00.000-07:00

Hihi! ^^

Suddenly woke up, cuz my room's a north pole.. :((

Talked to huns just now... as in, SMS.

was actually discussing about child names! haha! so cute right? HAHA! XD

then we talked about other thinfs too! hehe. ^^

love her ttm. ♥

chiao~ ^^

2011-07-30T00:18:00.000-07:00

Dear " Someone ♥",

I miss you like crazy... :'(

Can we spend time together again? :X

Sincerely,

Chris

2011-07-29T09:16:00.001-07:00

i really still feel that you're still angry with me.. :((

All i know is that, i'm really really sorry for what i've said. As in, i didn't really mean to hurt you or whatsoever, but its just that, i really really care about you. Its not a cliche, but its really something that comes from me myself. I really wanna share your burdens with me, because i wanna be there whenever you need me. I really really do. I really really do love you a lot. In fact, i can say that i really love you more than i love myself. Really.

I talked to a friend while on the way home. She told me that one of the biggest mistake on guys is that, guys have very strong tendency to become really sticky and over-protective, as that is how they show their care to their companion. Definitely, i know i fall into this category. Maybe, i wasn't such a good bf afterall. No Action, Talk Only.

I should really have been more sensitive towards your situation just now, but i choose to be nosey, and demand things to be told. I must have been a selfish person... maybe that's the real me.... no one knows right?

in short, if i had hurt you or whatsoever, i'm really really sorry.. :( dk whether you see the sincerity from this... sigh~

nevertheless,

Love you.

♥

2011-07-28T10:50:00.000-07:00

tired from studying.... but i know that its gonna be worth it...

i kept imagining myself in my dream job. Its the goal that attracts me the most. I definitely gonna earn more than my dad if i take that job. then, i keep imagining that one day, i'll go to my dad and shout at him, "In Your Bloody Face", cuz i'll be just earning more than him...

just wait and see...

and then i can live happily ever after... with my dreaaaam gurl~ :3

love~~~~ you~~~ :)

♥

2011-07-26T07:30:00.000-07:00

I REALLY THINK THAT YOU'RE SO DARN CUTE WHEN YOU BLUSH!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHOULD HAVE TAKEN PICTURE OF YOU AT THAT MOMENT MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KYA~~~

love you love you love you!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2011-07-25T08:27:00.000-07:00

Hey. My name is Chris. I've lived closed to 18 years in this filthy world.

Yes. its me. I'm just experiencing a PMS, or mood swing.

Disappointment will forever be my best friend. He'll be there for me, anytime, any where, any occasion. Never leave me, never turn his back on me. He's a great, life-long friend that i'll have.

Yes. I'm disappointed at myself. I got angry too easily, and i'm too sensitive, i've to admit. A little bit of stark, harsh words can simply turn me off. I used to think that we should treat others with lots of respect. By not using harsh words, and tell them nicely. Hence, i got turned off easily when people condescend me.

This kind of attitude that i had, is actually the kind of attitude that abhor the most about me. I can see in others' eyes that i'm just nothing, but someone who wanted to be treated like a king. Always think that my perspective is the best amongst the rest.

I used to give some wisdom to my friends when we reach a disagreement, back then. But overtime, i become as corrupt as them, often being nefarious. Now, my coup de grace in any argument is either a deaf ear, or egregious usage of vocabulary on others.

And yes, i won the argument... in a selfish way...

i gotta change. really.

i'm not pin-pointing on anyone else... except me...

Maybe this whole thing is happening to me, because , well, maybe i'm just confused.

I'm just a confused, young man, with immature thoughts and everything. really.

I really, do not know what caused me to be like this. Maybe i'm just seeking attention? I don't know. I mean, its me.

I think i really need alot of time on my own... maybe should go somewhere further. Maybe Changi instead of Clarke Quay on every Fridays. . . .

sometimes...

i just fell that...

someone should give me a gun, and i'll pull the trigger. . .

Done. Problem solved.

Shall go to school tmr with a smile on my face, as usual. . .

shall end my rants here.

2011-07-24T12:46:00.000-07:00

hey girl~

IReallyLoveYouVeryMuch.IdkIfWeCanBeConsideredIfWe'reInDeepR/nOrNot,ButICanPromise

YouThatI'llReallyLoveYouDearly...

ButIKnowThatIfWe'reToSeparate,BothOfUsWillBeTerriblyHurt...

and and,

IDoRatherTellYouTheTruthAndFeelEmbarrassed,RatherThanBottlingUpAnd BOOM! ThingsHappens.ButYouGottaTrustYourselfTooK?

ILoveYou

♥

2011-07-22T09:46:00.000-07:00

sports fiesta was a total fun with kenny, jun jie, hong kai, wei han, joshua, and sean kee. Escaped from CCAB at around 11? hehe. damn cool sia. Damn fun... never escape from school event before. hehe. hope teachers dont call my parents? HAHA!!!

homed, and then went to Clarke Quay again... i think i can just keep doing this every friday... hehe.. went around the Central Mall there... looked for smth to buy for honey.. well, window-shop. hehe. cuz that can just make me feel happier. hehe. :) wish honey was there~ :(

went to walk walk walk around... there the seafood restaurant has nice menus, and scenery... not to forget the "nice" price too.. =.= maybe shall go there on our 1st year anniversary? hehe. :) gotta start saving then! haha! :D

while otw to tuition, otp-ed with honey... i just like her sweet, delicate voice... never fail to make me smile.. :)

If kisses were water, I will give you an ocean.

If hugs were leaves, I will give you a forest.

If life were a planet, I will give you a galaxy.

If love is life, I will give you mine.

love you baby girl~

♥

2011-07-20T13:49:00.001-07:00

you dont have to treat me like i'm the only boy in the world. as long as i'm the only boy in YOUR world, well, that's all that matters... :)

love you!

♥

2011-07-19T04:58:00.000-07:00

"i dont wanna be without you girl ~"

"24/7... my heaven."

"i miss you..i need you.."

"i just wanna stay with you, baby~"

"I dont know, but my heart's saying you're the one for me"

"i cant stop; love love love ~"

"you're the one~"

"you're my destiny"

"oh my, Super Girl.."

"good person; you're the one that taught me how to love.."

"i want nobody nobody but you~"

"everyday i think about you. every night i wanna be with you~"

"dont worry baby, now i'm falling in love... with you."

"just wanna be with you"

"i can't stop loving you"

"so beautiful my girl~"

"baby.. i need you~"

"listen to my heart.. beat. that's beating for you.. you."

"i just wanna kiss.. i never wanna miss.."

"no matter what happens.. even if the sky's falling down.. i promise you... that i'll never let you go..."

^^ lyrics from kpop songs.. not all. hehe... ^^

today chatted with honey. for, i think 1h? lol. love her voice ttm ^^.

hehe. talk to her, only makes my day...

btw, went through NCO photos... i really.. miss my crazy NCO-ers. as in... whole... when i log into Facebook and view the photos... i cant help but to cry... its really an awesome experience... sigh... i really hope the ppl from 36th batch will visit the 37th batch this year... i really miss them... really feel like crying.... sigh... :(

till here! stay beautiful!

loveee you. ♥

2011-07-13T07:27:00.000-07:00

yawn~ so tired... but lazy sleep.. :B

hmmm, kinda "worried" that there's someone else that knows how to dance BEAST's Fiction... i better start to choreograph the dance soon.. :X

hmmm, ya. last year, he finish choreographing SHINee's Lucifer ahead of me. not gonna lose to him this time round. :B

hehe. motivational workshop, hmmm, not so fun motivating. but the last day (today), geok teng's and rizuan's speeches touched me the most. i've feelings too kay! haha!

hmmm, ya. quite a loooooong day today, and yet, principal didnt gave us half day tmr.. wts.. =.=

haha! pawn-ed honey today, by texting her an "urgent" message. hehehe.. :P

till here!

chris.

2011-07-10T01:30:00.001-07:00

there'll be two things in my mind now:

1. HER ♥

2. Foreign Exchange. . .

2011-07-08T19:05:00.000-07:00

HEY BEAUTIFUL!!!

i miss your voice... :'(

2011-07-08T07:25:00.000-07:00

hehe. back from tuition~ :D

went to play wii after exam... at my house lah. duh. =.=

then, went do some aquarium stuff, then go town area ... alone...

yes, i'm lazy to tilt the image.. lol..

damn ghostly ... the atmosphere.. as if, time just stood stilll. its eerie... but yet, emotional..

yeah. had a great time there alone... at least, my mind doesnt feel heavy anymore.. :)

then went to Plaza Sing. walk walk around, then suddenly got the thought of buying smth for honey for 1st anniversary gift. so, yeah. bought smth perishable, due to some reasons.. :/

hope she dont read this post till i gave her the stuff.. :/ HAHA!

its nothing expensive though... since plaza sing got nothing much.. =.=

haiz... exams over ready... means no more early dismissal.. :(

but the thing is, i'll miss the fact that honey will send a reminder to sleep kind of thing.. i think its cute. :3 hehe.

i mean, by looking at the past 3 years, life's shit. yes, i have friends all those, but no one really understood me. If one day i were to die, no one will care right? no one will even bother.

that's why i'm damn happy to have her now. :) i feel more cared for, and more belonged [ other than NCO-ers, of course :) ] . there's at least someone that i can finally rely on, and care bout my well-being...

idk if anyone bothers to read this, but who cares? :)

haha! loving YOU always!

chris

♥

2011-07-07T00:49:00.000-07:00

yawn~ lazy to study... so i blog... hehe.. :)

talked to her on the phone yesterday.. around 5 plus i think?

haha. her voice really so freakin darn cute. sound like my first gf (but that's not the point). It sound like, erm, how to say. erm, like small kid like that.. :B hehe... darn cute. ^^

haha. didnt really talk much. crapping around basically. but it was fun... cuz i miss her voice... :'( aww...

haha! :) sorry viewers. if i get too mushy or what. afterall, this is MY blog. not yours. :) so, if you're discontented, there's always the little red X button at the top right hand of the page. :)

hehe. really love her loads.. She's my fourth gf, and i hope she'll be my last? :) haha!

last long baby~

love you. ♥

2011-07-04T22:34:00.001-07:00

No matter how far the place we'll go...

The places that we'll go....

you and i will always be together... :)

2011-07-04T09:48:00.000-07:00

hi. just a random post.

i love my girl v much. hehe... :B

v v v v v vv much~~~~~~~

dont want share with others... XD

anyone try to steal her, i'll haunt your dreams EVERYDAY. :)

haha!!!

k. bye.

love you baby ^^

2011-07-02T13:59:00.001-07:00

HEY GIRL! :D

Remember what date is todayy? :DD

HAHA!

time flies when having you around...

although we cant go out for this together,

hmmm, maybe we celebrate it another day?? :)

haha! hmmm, dk what to get for you for this manz... :X

i just got a felling that his will last long...

and hmmm, we should really dont listen and be affected by "third-parties" anymore.

k? enough seeing you suffer already... :(

sooo uh, stay young, stay happy yo! XD

happy 1st annv. baby.

Love you.... ♥

something dedicated for you:

2011-07-01T19:24:00.001-07:00

Scorpio is probably the most feared and yet the most revered sign of the zodiac. Most Scorpios would not hurt a fly for they are as gentle, caring, and generous as they can be hard, cruel, and mean. It really depends how they are treated.This is a sign which demands respect and usually gets it. Scorpions are highly sensitive, emotional creators who are so easily hurt that they cannot bear to show their feelings for fear of being ridiculed.Scorpios develop from an early age the ability to control such outer expressions of emotion, and remain dry-eyed. Scorpios do not forgive easily, if even at all, and are capable of holding a grudge for the rest of their lives. Scorpio subjects are hardworking, generous, and very determined. Once they begin a task, they will be dedicated to finishing it.Thye can become obsessively devoted to a person, a cause, or a project.

this is what most people dont get it...

(OMG! Scorpios are compatible with a Virgo!! kya~~~ XDD)

2011-06-28T04:57:00.000-07:00

yeobo wont talk to me for another 1 week plus~ :((

she ask me go study... =.=

walau.................................................................

haha. kk. nvm.

after that, i'll go spam her... hehehe... XD

chiao~ :D

love you~ <3

2011-06-27T05:37:00.000-07:00

I ' LL GET INTO BIOMEDICAL SCIENCES NO MATTER WHAT...

2011-06-20T08:08:00.000-07:00

Dad,

If you're gonna take away my phone for the rest of my life, well, so be it. :)

Maybe, i'm already going to meet my life expectancy. well, who knows right?

Hmmm, afterall, i did not really regret for being "a part" of the family...

I wont fall for your condemnations or whatsoever.

Because it doesn't really matter if you still love me or not. as a child, or as a pest.

Well, if there's a contest for "The Worst Dad Ever", i'll really give you my support to participate.

Because i believe that, you wont be winning the Consolation Prize - more likely to be the winner of the contest.

I just love the way you condescend other people; because it will actually be my weapon against you in the future.

There's this saying: "what goes around, comes around".

Hell yeah, i'm sticking to that Principle of Life.

I know, you know, and everybody knows that you're a GOD; Nothing can go wrong, nothing will go wrong.

You thin you're always right. Well, if you think so, then there's nothing i can do about it.

Because, in YOUR eyes, i'm just a jerk - impulsive, rebellious, useless, filthy... the list can go on for days.

Nothing that I'll ever do, will be right. Nothing.

You're the Supreme Commander, My Master, My Lord, The Further.

and i'm just another slave. Because it'll be a shame for you, if you were to introduce to other people that i'm your child.

anyway,

even the Black and White statement of the Birth Certificate says i'm your Premarital Child.

That too, doesn't have any link that i'm your Legitimate Child.

Well~

i'm just wondering...

if having 1 child lesser in the household will do you any good.

maybe, you'll even celebrate to that uh?

Hmmm, since you're happy,

i shall force myself to be happy then...

hmmm, but i really have no other options, if i'm gonna run away from this house.

As in, place of accommodation, daily necessities....

I mean, come on. Who's gonna fund them for me right?

hmmmm,

suicide wont do any good also...

i dont wanna leave that special someone...

really really special... hmmm...

i'm in a dilemma...

but whatever the outcome is,

i'll still hate you dad.

if i were to die,

i'll make sure that i'll haunt you, and ruin this family apart.

because i was the one who bonded this family,

when you and mom quarreled a year ago.

but i also think that my mum's kinda dumb

I mean, she should have gone for the Divorce Case last year.

never the less,

i shall end my rants here.

for those out there,

you've just wasted about 5 mins of your life, reading a post that totally dont concern you.

but thanks still.For reading.

sometimes, i really want to donate my soul to those people that's dying in the African Continent - they deserve to live more than me.

but,

its the addiction for someone...that draws me back from doing that...

i dont think, that that addiction will ever dissipate.

in a nutshell,

i'm dying from living this life. . .

sorry...

to "you-know-who" . . . .

But this is my life. Its my fight...

2011-06-13T08:26:00.000-07:00

I dont wanna lose you

dont wanna hurt you

dont wanna let go of you

but i also dont wanna hurt my best friend...

2011-06-07T06:23:00.000-07:00

i love the experience, and my (NCO) clique... but sometimes...actually, most of the times...some idiots called PARENTS causes me to unintentionally hurt their feelings.... :( please forgive me... :((

2011-06-05T13:29:00.000-07:00

when you're in love and being loved, everything just seems wonderful.. <3

2011-02-19T11:20:00.000-08:00

you're everything to me...

2011-01-19T22:32:00.000-08:00

Thank you for all these years.

When i was 7, i remembered going into your home, and stayed there for a week.

I played around with the soil, sand, and the people there.

I remembered that i went catching with your Son and Daughter during one of the days.

We spent hours, and hours, playing with one another, and soon, more villagers come in and joined the fun.

It was an open society, and the people were selfless back then.

There was one time, i tried to fool around with a stray cat, and my arms got scratched by it.

There was a burning sensation. On the wound.

So, you rushed out, and grabbed some alcohol, along with some cotton wool to disinfect the open wound.

I was reluctant to offer my hand to you, but i agreed later on.

Then, you brought me to the padi fields.

The green, uniform scenery stretched as far as my eyes can see.

Then you brought me to the nearest beach.

The villagers there welcomed me with the warmth, in which, i can never forget.

One of the elder villager offered a conch, about the size of a mug.

It was beautiful. It was nature at its best.

As weeks, months and years gone by, you still remember me.

On late December, 2003, you waited at the airport to send me and my family to Singapore.

That was the last time i saw you...

Now, back here, hundreds of miles away, i shall pay my respects to my beloved godmother,

who just have joined Lord Above, into eternal slumber.

I'm terribly sorry, that i cannot be there, on this, fateful day.

I'm terribly sorry, that i was unable to bid the last farewell,

before your eternal slumber.

I'm sorry, that i won't be there for you, this time round...

Once again, i would like to thank you for everything.

FOr everything that you've done.

For being a part of my life.

God bless you, my dearest Godma.

Rest In Peace...

(19/1/2011)

2011-01-01T11:57:00.000-08:00

See me play L4D2!!

Young at heart. I playing Duel Masters :D
W.KamHo! Kranji Sec DM! and an asshole :D

You can NEVER find this aunty cleaning your toilet bowl... JK! XD Ivy's d best! :D

Ultimately, i still love you....

And hey! i'm still waiting for that ONE more photo from Sherene. XD

Many things happened, many things not. That's the bliss of living...

2010-11-25T10:40:00.001-08:00

Back blogging....

didnt fell like blogging....jst...feel..not right..

and hey. you know what, i love you...

2010-11-16T05:11:00.000-08:00

2010-11-11T10:41:00.000-08:00

YO!!

CANT sleep... cuz today is the LAST day of my NCO... :((((

haiz... i scared i later cry sia.... will miss ALL my new friends once i left... :((((

haiz... okay. let me share a little bit of NCO experience...

Despite the drills, DBT, and lectures, NCO spells FUN in each person!! luv macework ttm! XD

Luv my GFs (games facilitator) ttm! :D

and oh ya. i made 1 korean friend, 1 myanmar, 1 malaysian, 1 vietnamese, 1 indonesian (woots!),1 Philippine and 1 hong kong DM friends!! WOHOOOOO....... United Nations! XD

haha! okay. what can be more fun than meeting (crazy) new DMs EVERYDAY?????? XD

HAHA! sunburned till....black? HAHA! okays. more pic next time!! :D

okay okay...shall stop here for now...even though its not sleepy yet...haiz...

the time now is 2.48am..

(bellow: Contigent 2 of Display Band Technique (DBT))

2010-10-22T09:46:00.000-07:00

BACK FROOM BBQ!!!

the time now is 12:46 am... and like, everyone sleep ready... =.= haiz...no one to talk to... :(

haha. anywaay,

TODAY MORNING spent 2 and half hours with HONG KAI, OLIVER, and WEI HAN, go to Lot1 the LAN there. Played L4D2, and i ended up being friendly fired... =.= MAIN TARGET for uncommon infected, and yeah... haha. but it was DAMN fun lah, playing with them... :) after i left, WEN WEI took over my place... :)

then then, i go class BBQ. met up with SHAM, and HAKIM at yew tee,, then go to singapore flyer there eat, then go east coast park.... cracked like, many lame jokes on the way there. can't stop laughing!!!! XD reach there, go BBQ. then got police came. i heard that got dead body found floating, and they seal off some of the place. but i didn't care, and continued BBQ-ing. and oh ya. played dm with kenneth. quite childish, but FUN. :D

emo-ed on the way back home. dunno why, but suddenly feel sad. haiz...haha.

till here then...

(now, i finally understood the pain that you felt. i'm sorry for giving you up that time. i've to be happy for you, for being off with another, better guy. still, i'm sorry.)

2010-10-19T13:46:00.000-07:00

Baaack! from eternal slumber. :)

okay. today, go school, only bring one file.haha. was 1 minute early b4 they start catching latecomers.haha!

oh ya. reslts! hehehe

A2 for chem, (need just that damn half a mark for A1) =.=

B4 for English, (CAN GO SEC4 LE!!) XD

soooo far, these only..haha.

oh ya.btw. i feel "sad" for HuPeng who FAILED her overall english. i guess, next year no one to bully liao.. :(

holidays:

planned to finish choreographing Lucifer. HARD SIA! grr...

oh ya. i've loads of scores to transpose too!

study session with my dearest piggy. :3

save up to buy overhead filter for my fishy~

and oh ya. i laazy change blog songs, cuz nuthin new...haha.

till here! :D

Everyone who lives dies but not everyone who dies lives...

2010-10-04T02:54:00.001-07:00

This friday......is Emaths paper 1.......

BRING IT ON, BABY! let's just write name, class, index no., tie the papers, and hand in to teacher... :)

do, dont do, try, dont try, also fail. safe ink. and paper. DONT DO. :)

2010-09-25T11:19:00.000-07:00

can someone return my penknife? i'm dying without it...my hobby's gone... :(

or wait.lets try....kitchen knife???

the world dont need me anymore. one by one, everyone will walk away from me. i'm so imperfect. no one understands me, but they say, "i understand you". i think the world will be a better place without me. i would not have to be someone's burden.no. i shouldn't be in this place at all. i should just vanish. I should have just sacrificed my life for the people in Africa, or just die in a terrorist attack. i'm always wrong. so imperfect. everyone around me are more of a superior race than me; they're always correct, always perfect. me? just another little rubbish, waiting to be burn away. just kill me in my sleep.someone.please.life is shit.this is shit. just....leave me alone..............................................................................

leave me alone..............................................

2010-09-18T05:37:00.000-07:00

Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
-Kahlil Gibran

went to johore today for my root canal treatment. AWESOME! i tell you. the moment the what, tranquilizer injected in your gums right, YOU WONT FEEL PAIN! its like, UNDESCRIBABLE! no matter how HARD you pinch it, or how HARD you punch it, YOU WONT FEEL PAIN! AWESOME MAN!! haha. yeah. i now then realise that surgeries arent painful uh! ^^

2010-09-09T23:35:00.000-07:00

AHHH! SHIT MAN!!! MY THROW!!! EPIC FAIL!!! ='((((

PRACTICE soooo hard, then fail... =(((((((

vvvvv saddd....

......

anyway, got another chance to try again in NCO camp! WOOOOO! skip 1 week of school! yeah! XD

haha.lols. anyway, my phone went for a spin in the washing machine....and yeah...i got another lousy phone for the time being....damn fking lag...zzz... =.=

haha. wait for SA2, and I'M SURE, I'LL TOP THE CLASS FOR PURE GEOG..HAH!

just wait and see....hah!

2010-09-01T02:19:00.001-07:00

FINALLY!!!!! A DAY, without homeworks....a day, that i can be FREE!!!!!! WOHOOOOOOO!!!! looking forward to outings!!! HAHAHA!! wow. met old TWP-ians yesteday... EVERYONE CHANGED!! wow. haha. okay...spent 2 hours cleaning my trumpet...POLISH TILL DAMN SHINY!! :D lol. haha. okay...off to play S.T.A.L.K.E.R.!!! WOHOOits a great game!!! ;D

2010-08-14T20:15:00.000-07:00

What is the purpose being a parent? is it to curse YOUR OWN child, or to motivate them? looks like you're a failed PARENT. only know how to CURSE and LOOK DOWN on your own SON, who's posting this post. you can blame me for only knowing how to complain. Call me the son of Devil. Call me any names you like. I cant be bothered. you're just another LOSER parents in this earth. i won't die without you. Only know how to complain huh? only know how to spend more time in band huh? yeah right. have your way of favoritism. i want to see how SUCCESSFUL you are, in fulfilling YOUR duty as a bitchy MOM.

2010-07-30T01:54:00.000-07:00

what the fck are you doing!! cannot see is it? bind ah! conductor down there, also cannot follow! play melody some more...ndp you put the whole band to shame lah! last time say say say, but cannot do! make the whole band repeat how many times!?! dumb ah!?!

2010-07-16T01:02:00.000-07:00

LOVE is just another STUPIDthing, that human sentiments create...

2010-07-15T05:28:00.000-07:00

i saw the message on my phone. I ask Lord: "is this true?"

sooner or later, i still have to accept the truth.

bye, and i'll miss you.

always.

2010-07-07T07:36:00.000-07:00

JesusLordPleaseSaveMeFromThisInsanity

2010-07-01T04:34:00.000-07:00

Had band today... wow. seriously, i need to buck up...HAHA! eh, Sun Yu, Thanks for the SNSD album AH!!!!!!!! HAHAHA!!!.. and and, Investiture's coming VERY soon..... better plan properly if wanna impress the seniors... :P

And, sorry Andrea and Serene....can't live up to your expectation...sorry to disappoint you guys.... :(

and...please....tell me what's wrong...I'm lost without you...i'm not scolding you,and i still love you... <3

2010-06-24T20:56:00.000-07:00

WHY THE BLOODY HELL MY COMP CRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE BEST PART AFTER EXAM YOU CRASH!!!! SEE LAH!!!

ALL MY GAMES DESTROYED LE!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID YOU!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-20T18:55:00.000-07:00

The fking purpose to have a leader is to SHOW the followers the right thing.
The damn purpose to have a leader is to GUIDE the followers to a right path.
The bloody hell purpose of a leader is to OBSERVE discipline to the followers.
The mother fking purpose to have a leader is to CHOOSE the path of wisdom over compromise.

Right now, is the FOLLOWERS that are showing the best example...
pretty disappointed with these leaders...

2010-06-20T01:17:00.000-07:00

Replying tags:

Yuen Sian - OI!!! INVITE ME LEH!!!! :D
Jia Yi - HAHAHA!! OF COURSE!!! MULTI TALENTED!! ITS A MUST!! :D
YiTong - Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!! Do TAG OFTEN!!! :D
Delson - (Chris likes Delson's comments") (y) :D

2010-06-13T02:39:00.000-07:00

MY DEAREST RUMPET SECTION!!!!!!!!!!! haha! back from the trip! IT was....sort of great uh..... :D

2010-06-09T13:13:00.000-07:00

HIIII PPL!!! today is the day...i'll be off for malaysia trip till saturday....hahahahahaha!!! hope everything go smooth ya!! :D haha! good night to ALLLL those ppl who're still reading this!!! and GOOD MORNING to ALL the Band members!!! :D haha
ok.i go download kpop for my mp3 le. 3BLOODY HOUR RIDE....YOU DONT EXPECT ME TO ROT RIGHT???? :D

2010-06-04T23:46:00.000-07:00

let (Malaysia trip) be f(x):

f(x) = (DM + Logistic Head) + (3D2N)
= (trouble)
= ????

=.= okay. lame.

2010-05-26T03:41:00.000-07:00

WAAAAHHH!!! BACK FROm CAMP!!! ^.^

haha!. didn't bring any photos back cuz WE'RE NOT ALLOWED TO BRING HANDPHONES THERE.... dammit. :(

hehe. however, i did bring back memories that'll last till the end of time...like, going into the river, and then i fell into the muddy water... :)

haha.lol. the best part of the third day is that the SKIT that i have to wear the BLOODY WIG!!! WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

haha! purposely didnt excrete any organic materials cuz no mood to do so! haha! the toilet must SQUAD the leh... :(
also, i made GOOD friends with the (idiotic) mosquitos there... =.=

haha.managed to smuggle in my MP3.... hehe..... :)
haiz. nothing to say le. damn tired. body aching. better sleep early to avoid the banana trees..haha! bye!

2010-05-19T04:23:00.000-07:00

Excuses Don't Work.

2010-05-17T02:15:00.000-07:00

I need you more than a conductor needs his baton.
I need you more than Spogebob needs Patrick.
I need you more than Red Shirts needs anti-Dictatorship policy.
I need you more than Hitler needs his bodygurads.
I need you more than Earth needs it atmosphere.
I need you more than SNSD needs Tae Yeon.
I need you more than Devil needs its Tail.
I need you more than Angel needs its Halo.
I need you more than X-box 360 needs its controller.
I need you more than Leon needs Ada.
I need you more than Setsuna needs his 00 Raiser.
I need you more than a computer needs its CPU.
I need you more than Romeo needs his Juliet.

but most importantly...

i need you like an "ultra-ordinary broken-hearted" guy needs a "simple ordinary" girl to mend his heart...

...i just hope that,
...my prayers, in which i claps my hand,
...thightly,
...will soon,be answered.....

2010-05-12T20:36:00.000-07:00

Living Without The Pain You Created Is Impossible

let my blood flow again...

2010-05-10T20:57:00.000-07:00

BigBang - My Heaven

Love you girl, kimi dake ga my heaven
Sing it together
Lalala...
Big Bang
Lalala...
Hey T, let's do it bro
Go go go...

24/7 itte mirya heaven
24/7 yume kokochi heaven
24/7 eien sa heaven
24/7 heaven let's go

Yo, maji iu nara sou kimi ga towa no my lover
Everything in the past is like never let go
Never knew that love could come and go just like that yo
Waiting for you day and night in my dreams and go
Summer flow in the night, take flight and glow
That's forever love
Kimi to iru hazu no tomorrow its gone

Sanzan make love na noni naze kimi wa gone
Ai wa tsukamikakete itsumo
Mata kono te suri nuketa
Kimi dake nanka sukoshi chigau
Unmei kanjiteta noni
Mirai saa
You're the only one in my life

Aitakute aitakute
Ano umi de matte iru yo
Kimi e no omoi
Asa mo hiru mo yoru mo
Aitakute you are my heaven

Happiness ... sadness ... tears ...

Sky ... stars ... and my heaven

Kimi dake ga inai
Iro no nai sekai
Dameeji wa fukakute hakarishirenai
Ano hi no kuchibiru mada atatakaku
Omoidaseru noni nasusube mo naku

Oh baby baby, hora, kokoro no naka ni kimi no memory
Oh baby baby, mada karada ni nokoru kimi no messeeji
Tsumenai netsu wo owaraseru youni
Oh baby, furu tsuetai ame

Because of you

Kienaide kienaide
Ano natsu de toki wo tomete
Omoide daite aki mo fuyu mo haru mo
Eien ni you are my heaven

Hey, hey, listen to me

Saigo ni kita messeeji
Gomen dake ja shoujiki nani mo wakannai
Mou ichido soba ni kite ano koro mitai ni waratte yo

Aitakute aitakute
Ano umi de matte iru yo
Kimi e no omoi asa mo hiru mo yoru mo
Aitakute you are my heaven

24/7 my heaven

2010-05-03T00:15:00.000-07:00

“You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

David Harkins (British Poet and Painter b.1958)

wont be going school tommorrow due to severe cough and flu.....hope that my Mother Tongue result in CA is good, cuz they'll be taking it for my SA marks... THIS IS THE FIRST TIME IN HISTORY THAT I'LL BE TAKING MC OKAY!!! haha! Waah... dont understand the jargons in my bio textbooks....... :( should be sick later and then pon maths papers....hehe.....

hope that i'll get some advice from her?maybe? just wishing.....

2010-04-22T04:30:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile since i posted on this blog le....

Hmm.....quite a number of events happened...so i wanna post this thingy....

Last Saturday:

Went to Saint Joseph's School for scrabble competition.......LOST again........to Bukit Panjang, wo's our most trasher............damn.....

then, what ah?oh!

Today:
Went marsling buy somemore fishes......

haha! that's all...lazy post.....

2010-04-13T22:31:00.000-07:00

JESSICA!!!!!! YURI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha...been obsessed by them lately....haha....watch their new song, ppl!!!

2010-04-12T03:11:00.000-07:00

DUE TO some ppl want me to update my blog...so here it is.....hahah!

wah, damn stressful man!!!! I FAILED MY BIO!!!!!!!! HOW!?!?!?!? SINCE P3 i NEVER get until FAIL LEH!!! DAmmit....must work 150x more!!!! T.T

haiz... and hor, tommorow after e learning got band............must be more focus too!!!!! argh! so stressed up!! homework's piling! test's coming! argh!!

wonder how "she" is coming....jiyou for 'your' test uh!
(hopes that "she" sees this..)

its just the fact that, when i know you, the word "LOVE" don't exist in my dictionary...

When something shatters, blood splaters...

2010-03-29T02:29:00.000-07:00

It has been sometime since a last updated this blog.... haha ok.

22nd March

went to MINDS for cip. omg. damn scary. feel like in mental hospital. NOT JOKING! very very scary...dun wan talk bout it....

27 march 2010

went out to mac for committee meeting. 1st meeting in my whole year.haha.of course. with great power lies great responsibility. must run everything smoothly, if not die....haha.i really hate it when ppl nvr put their bags behind the curtain...if simple things like dat also cannot do, how achieve gold medal by next year?

2010-03-20T06:00:00.000-07:00

did nothing much today...went youtube see all the flight of bumblebee from different instruments.....wow......i wanna play like dat...

hahah.

my resolution?
hehe. i dun wanna show of... :)

wanna change this blogskin...

"trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you've never met
-unknown"

2010-03-18T04:31:00.000-07:00

I hate it when i have to shout at the band for small stuff...throat damn pain...

-edited-

haha

still haven think of my new year resolutions yet. haha. tommorow, band ppl fall in at 8.35 ah. Late, run hor! :D

hahah. need back up my voice. shout commands not strong enough, i think...u think with the new rules being implimented, i do be too ambitious le.....1st day taking as a major....so scary....hahah!

you know how heartpain it is to put on a fake smile everytime when you see anyone? :(

2010-03-16T17:19:00.000-07:00

I went to online at about 8.20 today, and no one was online.... =.=

haiz.....tommorrow, my batch die liao......got band workshop, sure all the sec3s teo shoot one....haiz.....

yest. went out to slack with YiTong, Delson,Michelle,and Lin Zhi. slacked at YiTong's house, den go Delson house, den go canal emo.......................

haiz....dk what to post ready......................

2010-03-14T21:49:00.000-07:00

Sunday Went out for the Swiss Serenade concert on Singapore Poly. It was a great band. 2 cca (Band & NCC) in 1 ? cool man! :D