Its sucks when the only thing you can do, is to hope, and to pray.

i just wish, i can be less sensitive and less paranoid. for that, i really hate myself.

someone please drive through a wooden stake at my chest. just fucking stop the heart from beating. tyvm.

Time management. Time management. Time management.

i wanted to do a million things. Time, why arent you on my side?

seriously fed up with myself. i wanna work. i wanna volunteer. i wanna play. i wanna make music. i wanna study. i wanna spend time with you.

i seriously in need of time.

i cant let this holiday pass by like my other holidays did. i wanna make sure that it'll be a meaningful one, for i know, i wont have this luxury in JC anymore.

seriously, ask myself. why am i just so stupid? why cant i do things faster? why cant i do things correctly? why cant i do things accurately?

why on earth am i born like this?

please, pretty please, assure me that i'm the only one in your heart, and no one else??

haiz...

i really am, scared that i'm falling into paranoia and schizophrenia . . . . or is it just my hallucinations?

haiz....

it's killing me slowly...

it really is.....

sigh...

off, to my abyss....

sorry, but i really am in love with my girl. ^^