Hey you,

Yes you.


I really appreciate you coming back into my life. Really.

From the efforts you put in, time you were willing to spend with me.... all those.

And oh. Rmb my drunkard texts?

I apologize for not being too wise by divulging out all my heartfelt pains.

Melancholic.

No doubt you were the best that ive ever had. No doubt.

Sometimes, i cant help but to wonder, what if we would have pushed on back then. Would we still be together?

What if you hadnt given up on me, on us?



But then again, i know this feelings wouldnt be mutual.

Its always on me, but never on you.

They say loving isnt about possessing. If you pick a flower by the roadside, it'll soon wither.

But the only one i see withering is me rn

No matter how many walls ive put up, you always have the keys to destroy them.


I guess i have to really... walk myself out from this?

Maybe someday. Maybe some day i might live my life independent of you. Or maybe not. I dont know.

But still,

Through all these years, i still loved you the same.

The same as the day you walked out,

030212.

Take care ice princess.

Till we meet again.

Maybe, maybe.

Maybe I've hoped for the sky, but reality didn't even let me take off. Maybe I've hoped for love, only to find it at arm's length. Maybe I've hoped for a similar being, only to find plenty full of difference.

Maybe, maybe I've hoped for too many things that weren't there anymore...

Will you be coming?

19 AUGUST 2015, 23:09 A few more days to the "reunion" in out former school, the school in which we first met. Will you be coming? Somehow wishing for you to be reading this. But we'll, maybe you've forgotten? Still loving you, BlackRose.

CICERO Dream

03 AUGUST 2015, 23:54 Can't sleep. Brain's not shutting down. Urgh. I opened the Twitter messages that we exchanged 4 years ago. Felt like a time capsule. Still thinking bout the dream. We were cuddling, giggling at one another. It was warm, and felt fuzzy. Not the first time I had this dream. Maybe it's the third time already? I remembered the last time I dreamed bout CICERO was last year or something. We were playing for a concert. And at the end of the successful concert, I popped the question. She accepted, and Ben's watching us. It was great. Not sure why am I still feeling this way. I mean its been 4 years. 4 long darn years. God, give me an answer please?

Well, you guys have your other significant ones.

But i only have you guys...

Do you see it now?

moving on, with pride.

Promos: If only i weren't that self centered, wasnt that competitive, maybe my whole class can promote together..? Sigh. This whole thing is making me very guilty... Can't take the sight of people crying... Probably only make me feel worst than them.. oh my. Wasnt a good day either. I just need someone to rant to. But oh well. Trusting people can really be an issue with me. Disgusting character flaw. Disgusting... Rather confused with my personal feelings too. I cant deny that sense of affection for you is still there, but maybe... sooner or later, i've got to let you go and stop talking to you... I dont think i deserve to have you back. No. I dont know. Sigh. FML. Guess, this is my ranting ground?